By His Holiness Bhaktiratna Sadhu Swami Gaurangapada
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Dear Swami Gaurangapada & All,
Please accept my humble obeisances. All glories to Srila Prabhupada!
I have been perusing your site for about 6 months now, and I guess because of my circumstances I have been pushed to introduce myself to the NITAII community at large. My name is Bruce, and I live in USA. I'm not new to the esoteric teachings of the Vedic literature, but I'm still a neophyte.
About three months ago, I started to chanted Nityananda and Gauranga mantras, but I never did share this with anyone. I did my own self experience with the holy names because I was skeptical about it's validity, to be quite honest.
However, I started to make amazing result. I became steady in my spiritual practices. I became so attached to these holy names now.
So, I decided to share this spiritual realization with my spiritual master Babaji and to the general community at large, and I have been placed on corrective actions.
I was told that I was not intellect because I'm trying to concoct some nonsense. I was told that this is a form of impresonalism, and that I was chopping a branch for devotion service by such foolish methods. What is more, I was told that because such named actions I was informed that I had committed an offense to the holy name, and that I probably have lost my taste for the Maha mantra.
I still chant my rounds.
I had tried to submit scripture, but he would have none of it. He told me that I was trying to find a quick and easy way to Krsna, and simply put: there are none.
However, the oddity of this situation occurred with a dream I had on the night before. A golden woman placed her foot on the top of my head, and the next day all this has happened. I'm attached to Nityananda, Gauranga mantra. I don't think I can give it up. I have tried, but I feel so sad and empty away from them.
Have I lost the taste for the holy name?
Can anyone explain this dream?
What is a person to do when one's heart is leading you in a different direction for your guru?
I'm sorry to lay my trouble at your door steps, but I have no one else to talk too. Sadly, I can not asks any more question concerning this matter with my spiritual master.
Sincerely,
bruce
Dear Bruce, Nityananda!! Gauranga!! Hare Krishna!! Jaya Shri Guru Parampara! Pranaams and blessings.
I welcome you here to our site and am so happy that you have kindly shared with us your nice realizations about Nityaananda Gauraanga Naama.
However, I started to make amazing result. I became steady in my spiritual practices. I became so attached to these holy names now.
You are directly experiencing the benefits of Nityaananda Gauraanga Naama mentioned in the Scriptures and by our Acharyas. gaura naama jei labe, taate krishna kripaa habe ... so you should cherish them. 
So, I decided to share this spiritual realization with my spiritual master Babaji and to the general community at large, and I have been placed on corrective actions.
Your intentions were good and you wanted to share your spirtual realizations about Nityaananda Gauraanga Naama for everyone's benefit but it was not the fully correct thing to do since others were not able to appreciate it and ended up committing offenses against Nityaananda Gauraanga Naama. You should have tested the waters before and gauged what the response was going to be before telling them everything. It is said in the scriptures, that one should refrain from explaining those glories of the Holy Names from the scriptures which others may not accept and react to in an antagonistic way in order to avoid offenses against the most merciful Naama Prabhu of Nityaananda Gauraanga Naama. I know it is quite sad and unfortunate to keep such a great mercy within ourselves after knowing about and directly experiencing the benefits of such a great secret from the Vedic scriptures but we have to do that as an austerity in order to minimize the belittling of the sublime process of chanting Nityaananda Gauraanga Naama along with the Hare Krishna Mahaamantra and save those souls from committing this grievious offense.
I was told that I was not intellect because I'm trying to concoct some nonsense.
Shrila Prabhupada said the following not in his conversations but in the most important book (Cc) he wrote, "Therefore one who chants the mantra "gauranga" and one who chants the names of Radha and Krishna are on the same level." And many previous Acharyas said the same thing. So how are you concocting? This statement has absolutely no foundation. It shows lack of scriptural knowledge about the authenticity and the merciful nature of Nityaananda Gauraanga Naama Tattva.
I was told that this is a form of impresonalism, and that I was chopping a branch for devotion service by such foolish methods.
That is totally incorrect. Chanting Nityaananda Gauraanga Naama along with the Hare Krishna Mahaamantra roots out impersonalism from our heart totally. In fact, Nityaananda Gauraanga Naama are the very terminators of impersonalism. The two main branches of Bhakti are Krishna and Gaura. Differenciating between Them, accepting the chanting of the Holy Name of One and rejecting the chanting of the Holy Name of the Other, is just chopping One off. So it is s not you who is doing the chopping but those who say so may be doing it. Chanting Nityaananda Gauraanga Naama along with the Hare Krishna Mahaamantra is not a foolish method, but an authorized and bonafide method of Bhajana described in the scriptures. And the practical proof is your own realizations in the chanting of Nityaananda Gauraanga Naama.
What is more, I was told that because such named actions I was informed that I had committed an offense to the holy name, and that I probably have lost my taste for the Maha mantra.
Again, it is the directly the opposite of this. Chanting Nityaananda Gauraanga Naama is the fastest and easiest process to remove all the stringent ten offenses in the chanting of the Hare Krishna Mahaamantra and granting us unending taste for the Hari Naama.
I had tried to submit scripture, but he would have none of it. He told me that I was trying to find a quick and easy way to Krsna, and simply put: there are none.
Hearing the verses from the scriptures about the glories of the Holy Names should be the greatest pleasure for all Gurus, Sadhus and Vaishnavas and one should be most happy to hear such authentic glories. In the words of Lord Shiva and Shrila Narada Muni in the Navadvipa Dhaama Mahatmya, there is an easy way. gauranga bhajana sarala ati, sahaja tahara phala vitati. In this verse both "sarala" and "sahaja" words means Gauraanga Naama is certainly the easy way.
A golden woman placed her foot on the top of my head, and the next day all this has happened.
Shrimati Radharani gave you a glimpse and Her mercy so that you could pass the difficult test which was to happen. The Gauraanga Mantra is very dear to Shrimati Radha and She wanted you to continue chanting Nityaananda Gauraanga Naama along with the Hare Krishna Mahaamantra. Thus, She appeared to you in a dream to give you strength and prepare you for the next day.
I'm attached to Nityananda, Gauranga mantra. I don't think I can give it up. I have tried, but I feel so sad and empty away from them. Have I lost the taste for the holy name?
Please, listen to your heart and never give Them up. They are your key to chanting the pure Name. Gaining taste in Nityaananda Gauraanga Naama means you will receive much more increased taste for the Hare Krishna Mahaamantra very soon. So you are not loosing but gaining. We are always here to serve and assist you in your Bhajana.
Daaso'smi, BR Sadhu Swami Gaurangapada.
Dear prabhu,
Nityananda Gauranga Hare Krishna! Please accept my humble pranams!
You are a fortunate soul to have taken up the process of Nityananda Gauranga naam along with the maha mantra and having experienced the truth for yourself, you know within you that you should not give it up.
I tried to chant the Hare Krishna mantra for 5 years but unfortunately I had no taste and I was chanting off and on, only on occasions, and only committing aparadha all the time, so whatever taste I had also was being lost. Then I met the devotees here and took their words atleast somewhat seriously because when it is mentioned in the scriptures, it is the highest evidence. The moment I chanted the first name Nityananda I knew, like the sound of a bomb that this was exactly what I needed. It took only one minute for me to realise that this is truly something amazing.
I have experienced a spiritual miracle in my life after these most merciful and loving Nityananda Gauranga came into my life by the causeless mercy of my devotees. I have also had some not very pleasant experiences in trying to get people to chant it. Most of them simply thought I had lost my rocker, while some other devotees raised all the protests that you yourself would have personally experienced. Some people even withdrew their association from me and although they are friendly as ever, still they keep their distance.
However for me it is now clear as I know that the sun is luminous, and I do not have to rely on anybody else's different opinions which I know are not correct. When one can feel the heat of the fire, how can we give room for someone else who thinks that fire is cold?
Previously I saw the mercy of the mantrarajas and I was very eager to let others get this mercy as well. But in time I learned my lesson -- first I should be convinced and I should make my practice perfect. Unless people are actually convinced that you are a great devotee, they will not listen to you and whatever you say they will not accept. Painfully it is true. So having received a huge head start, first I need to perfect myself. And when your associates see for themselves that there is genuine truth in it, then in the future they themselves may take it up. Some people have to see it to believe it. And if we have to preach, we should make ourselves perfect.
We need to be strong because mayadevi will not easily allow us such an outrageously easy chance to attain the Lord as the Nityananda Gauranga mantrarajas. But if you chant them, you will see how much your taste in the maha mantra will increase. There is really no point arguing when the other party has chosen not to listen to us -- we cannot force others. We may also feel doubtful later.
So I have some humble requests. First please go through the Nitaai Gauranga naam section in the forum as so much new spiritual nectar is available. And second, please listen to your heart and conscience, take to Nityananda Gauranga naam and see for yourself. Do not reveal these practices to everyone without being fully sure that they will accept it or not. Before drinking hot water we must make sure the temperature is safe. Please do you chanting in such a way that your objectors will not know and so any offenses to Nityananda Gauranga naam are avoided as Swamiji himself put it.
You are such a fortunate soul that Srimati Radharani has directly given mercy to you so it is a Divine order from the Lord and it must be respected. On top of everything you have experienced it for yourself. I am only a low sinner. I fall at the feet of a soul like yourself who received such mercy and so I certainly need your association and mercy that I also should develop some taste for the Holy names.
Daaso'smi,
Srinath
Nityananda Gauranga Hare Krsna
Dear Bruce,
thank you so much for sharing your realizations about chanting Nityananda, Gauranga and Hare Krsna with us.
I want to share my realizations from time when I met Swami for first time and when I started to chant Nityananda and Gauranga because they are very simmilar to your situation..
I was always struggling to chant my rounds, and somehow or other I found this site and was struck with siddhantha, teachings, behavior, of Swami Gaurangapada. At that time I started to chant Nityananda and Gauranga along with Hare Krsna and had similar realizations as you described . Suddenly I was severely criticized, simply because I am chanting Nityananda and Gauranga and that helps me to chant Hare Krsna! If that helps me why not to chant!
But chanting of Nityananda and Gauranga, it was not possible to abandon, because with Lord's mercy I relished drop of it's sweetness by chanting. So I was in very difficult situation and acted more on less on sentimental level. Swami Gaurangapada told me at that time that I should look from philosophical perspective, not sentimental and that is right way to do.
I must say to you dear Bruce, that this may look as tough time, revising of your values etc. but all that is part of Lords Divine Plan. Spiritual journey is not flat road, it is going on amassing paths.
I just want to say that from present point of view I can clearly see that this was perfect arrangement of Supreme Lord and that I then found my eternal spiritual master - Swami Gaurangapada. You are very fortunate, Srimati Srimati Radhika, Queen of Vrindavana and Ruler of Shyama's hearth, appeared to help you. Therefore I may understand that you are blessed by Her and she brought you to Nityaananda Gauraanga Naama.
Please, do not hesitate to write, read, associate, ask questions etc. to all members of this portal. We are here to help each others, to share realizations, to speak about Krsna and to give Krsna to others,.
I am very happy that you are here, and that you acted as you described. Your attitude of chanting Gaura-Naam, and actually attempt to preach about glories of Naam, presenting sastric evidences about Gaura Naam, pleased Srimati Radhika, who is Supreme Goal of meditation for babajis of Vraj, to appear in your dream and give you blessings.
Please take this situation as great bless and please dive into teachings of Nityananda Gauranga Naama deeply and fully. That will help you to destroy any hesitation and doubts that may remain. You are very fortunate soul, and very sincere soul because you accepted this chanting of Nityananda and Gauranga inspite many difficulties.
Please accept my humble obeisancess and welcome dear Brus,
Yours in service of Swami Gaurangapada,
Ishana Thakura das
Nityananda! Gauranga! Hare Krishna!
Dear Bruce
What wonderful realizations you have received and such mercy of Srimati Radharani!
I just want to echo what others have said. Don't let anyone discourage you from chanting Nitayananda! and Gauranga! as well as the mahamantra! We are Gaudiya Vaishnavas after all and we are all followers of Nitaai Gaura.
I am not as knowledgeable as others here, nor am I a good practitioner, but I know that Srila Prabhupada did say that chanting Nitayananda and Gauranga is on the same platform as the mahamantra and that I am a fallen soul and Nitaai and Gaura are most merciful to people like me. I am in need of purification and so I trust that Nityananda and Gauranga are especially merciful to people like me. I trust that we need to connect with Nitaai and Gaura, and chanting these mantrarajas is the best way to get connected with them.
Anyway, thanks so much for sharing your story! It has been very beneficial for all of us!
I am in LA and would be happy to talk with you sometime. Are you on Facebook? If so you can find me at www.facebook.com/neilrrasmussen Send me a friend request, if you want. (and the same thing to all other friends here as well!)
Nitayananda! Gauranga! Hare Krishna!
Neil in LA
Dear Bruce I will humbly try to post some scriptural referencess. Gurudeva explained everything, just want to share some references
1. "I became steady in my spiritual practices. I became so attached to these holy names now."
gaura-nama na laiya, yei krsna bhaje giya;
sei krsna bahu kale paya.
gaura-nama laya jei, sadya krsna paya sei;
aparadha nahi rahe taya.
"If someone endeavours to worship Krsna without regularly chanting the name
of Lord Gauranga, then he or she will achieve Krsna only after a very
prolonged period of time. But if someone takes shelter of the names of Lord
Gauranga, he or she will achieve Krsna very soon because his offenses will
cease to exist." Shri Navadvipa-dhama-mahatmya, Chp 7
Naam and Lord are non-different. You are saying that you are attached to Holy Names and that is confirmed here "if someone takes shelter of the names of Lord
Gauranga, he or she will achieve Krsna very soon because his offenses will
cease to exist ".
2."I was told that I was not intellect because I'm trying to concoct some nonsense."
Quote one:
"apane bolana more, iha yadi jani; amara ista-mantra jani' kahena apani.
'gaura-gopala mantra' tomara cari aksara; avisvasa chada, yei kariyacha antara"
Nakula Brahmacari told Sivananda Sena, "You are chanting the Gaura-gopala mantra, composed of four syllables (which is your ista-mantra i.e. worshippable mantra). Now please give up the doubts that have resided within you."
Purport by Shrila Prabhupada:
Shrila Bhaktivinoda Thakura explains the Gaura-gopala mantra in his Amrta-pravaha-bhasya. Worshipers of Shri Gaurasundara accept the four syllables 'gau-ra-an-ga' as the Gaura mantra, but pure worshipers of Radha and Krishna accept the four syllables ra-dha krs-na as the Gaura-gopala mantra. However, Vaishnavas consider Shri Chaitanya Mahaprabhu nondifferent from Radha-Krishna (shri-krishna-chaitanya radha-krishna nahe anya). Therefore one who chants the mantra "gauranga" and one who chants the names of Radha and Krishna are on the same level." End of Purport
Quote two:
"In Shri Chaitanya-mangala Sutra-khanda Verse 527 by Shrila Locana Dasa Thakura, the four-syllable Gauranga-mantra is described as the mantra through which Lord Gauranga is worshipped in Goloka Vrndavana, the topmost Vaikuntha planet in the spiritual world:
hema-gaura kalevara, mantra cari-aksara; sahaja vaikuntha-natha syama.
"The Lord sits on a golden bejewelled throne. He posseses a complexion millions of times more brilliant than the colour of molten gold. He is worshipped by all His devotees with the four-syllable mantra, 'Gauranga'."
End of purport
So, did Sivananda-Sena, Shrila Locana Dasa Thakura, Shrila Bhaktivinoda Thakura, Srila Prabhupad and numerous other acharyas (you can find unlimited support in sastras in Nitaai Veda) also "concoct some nonsense"?
There is also beautiful book "Sri Guru and His Grace". When I was in position similar to your present situation that book helps me a lot to understand dynamic of Guru tattva.
You can find it online here.
Nityananda Gauranga Hare Krsna
Yours in service of Swami Gaurangapada,
Ishana Thakura das
Dear Bruce prabhu,
Nityananda Gauranga Hare Krishna! Please accept my pranams!
This is a reply written by Hadai Nityananda Dasa, a remarkable devotee on this sangha to an earlier introductory post. I will requote it here
Nityananda Gauranga Hare Krishna!
Dear Guruji, Bhakta Mihir and devotees, please accept my humble obeisances. All glories to Sri Sri Guru and Gauranga.
Thank you for your desire to know me and in return I can say that I am always here to serve you to the best of your spiritual interest.
I have chanted the Hare Krishna Maha Mantra for almost 25 years with a flickering mind, sometimes enthusiastically engaged sometimes indifferently detached. Because of my countless offenses of so many lifetimes it seemed that I didn’t make any progress at all. I knew that it would be better to be initiated by a bonafide guru in the Gaudya Vaisnava tradition but every time when I thought I had ‘found’ my guru, he fell down soon thereafter. That was often quite frustrating (but also very eye-opening to be careful) and I kept praying to Lord Sri Krishna if He would be so kind to allow me to find ‘my guru’. Afterwards everything became completely clear. In 2004 when Swami Gaurangapada came into my life I instantly knew that he was my eternal guru. I embraced the Mantrarajas ‘Nityananda’ and ‘Gauranga’ right away and my whole spiritual life made suddenly sense to the core of my being. I remember chanting the first round ‘Nityananda’ and every syllable increased my happiness so intensely that at the end of that round I was spontaneously dancing with tears in my eyes. When I chanted my first round ‘Gauranga’ I nearly could stand the indescribable intense spiritual feelings I had and it was as if all the Vedas and Puranas opened their hearts to this insignificant soul. After the Mantrarajas I experienced the Hare Krishna Maha Mantra completely different than ever before. I found myself halfway on a hill on the border of a deep forest and a cloud of dust ascended from the hooves of thousands of Surabhi cows in the valley. When I looked up I saw the brightly radiating feet of Lord Sri Krishna and a little bit of His yellow dhoti, I didn’t dare to look up at that moment but I was well aware that He was playing His divine flute and behind the bushes and trees were the gopas and gopis hiding, trying to stay unnoticed and to get a glimpse of the whole scenery. It is obvious that I try here to describe the indescribable in my attempt to give you an idea of what happened to me when I came in contact with Guruji and the Mantrarajas.
I waited a year and received official initiation in 2005 from my eternal guru Swami Gaurangapada and later I received also second initiation from him. Before I met guruji I had a hard time finishing my rounds of the Hare Krishna Maha Mantra. After I met guruji it became a feast to chant and I can’t wait for the early morning hours to chant my rounds. Over time I have slowly increased the quantity of my chanting, little baby steps at the time and very gradually. Over the last year I am blessed to chant 64 rounds of Nityananda, and 64 rounds of Gauranga, and 32 rounds of Hare Krishna Hare Krishna Krishna Krishna Hare Hare Hare Rama Hare Rama Rama Rama Hare Hare. I didn’t increase the number of chanting my rounds on beads after reaching this stage just to be practical with my daily (material) time. However, I can tell you when you start your day chanting with all your attention on the holy Names you keep on chanting internally during all of your daily activities. In my case I have become obsessed with Lord Nityananda and Lord Gauranga and with Sri Sri Radha Krishna in the most positive sense of the word. They are always on my mind and everything I do is hand in hand with Them. I cannot imagine my life without Them. They are everything I am and what I want to be. Without Them my life would be wasted and I have put myself into a dangerous situation: I am totally dependent on Their mercy, dependent on the mercy of the guru parampara, dependent on the mercy of Guruji, dependent on the mercy of the servants of the servants of the Vaisnavas, and dependent on the mercy of devotees like yourself. I am dependent on the mercy of the smallest ants who have heard the holy Name ‘Nityananda’ because they are great devotees of Lord Gauranga Krishna. I am so incredibly dependent that my only prayer is to remain forever engaged in the service of the devotees of Lord Gauranga Krishna. I pray never to be liberated from this dependency because it is exactly this relationship with Lord Nityananda, Lord Gauranga and Sri Sri Radha Krishna and Their pure devotees that are the source of all my indescribable happiness.
I hope that this helps to get to know me a little. I also see that you visited my site www.be-pure.info and signed up for the weekly newsletter. Thank you for your sincere interest. Blessings upon you!
Your servant,
Hadai Nityananda dasa
Nityananda Gauranga Hare Krishna!
Daaso'smi,
Srinath
Nityaananda! Gauranga! Hare Krishna!
Dear Bruce!
Everything what should be told is told by other devotees. What i can add is only that i will pray for your happiness and that this difficult situation will not discourage you in chanting Nityananda and Gauranga Mantras.
What people are searching by reading, going for darshans, chanting mantras, prayers, involving ourselves in esoteric studies - all this is made for only on reason - to attain eternal happiness. And when you found the way to achieve this happiness, suddenly someone says that it is not the right way. In the same time that kinds of statements are absolutely in confrontation with what you feel
... Then... well I would say - never give up this happiness. Because its yours. And you are the one, who will benefit from your own activities and from your practice .It may sound very selfish, I know, but please, don't give up chanting Nityananda Gauranga Names.
Sincerely (i really mean it!)
KRdd
Nityananda! Gauranga! Hare Krsna!
Dear Bruce, you said "What is more, I was told that because such named actions I was informed that I had committed an offense to the holy name, and that I probably have lost my taste for the Maha mantra.
I still chant my rounds."
.... the important thing to remember Bruce is that the Holy Name of Gauranga and the Holy Name of Krishna are non-different.
In the neopyhte stage of spiritual life there is often inner conflict at various levels, and 'a great need to harmonize' and find 'peace'. Whoever advised you in the above statement must surely still be in that stage of 'conflictive consciousness and lack of harmony', or, if they are elevated they are' being compassionate and trying to deter you frompossible inner conflict'. Inner conflict is a great pitfall in spiritual life and never leads to peace.That is what I perceive from my own encounters and journey anyhow...and from reading your words.
A Gaudiya devotee may feel more attraction to Gaura lila or to Krsna lila, or maybe equal attraction to both. You have dreamed of a 'golden female'... I am presuming from this your soul and spirit is attracted to 'Gaura' and to the sweetness of 'Sri Radha'. I am perceiving that you are sensitive in heart. What better qualification to receive Srimate Radharani's Lotus Feet and blessing??? A heart free of guile is a simple heart...
I consider Sri Gauranga a dear friend, and when I lose sight of him a great sadness enters my heart! Let love lead your heart, intuit it, and feel that love. Others can give suggestions, but only you will know your soul in relation to God. Allow others that space of self discovery also...and try to harmonize all things (within).
y.s. Nava.